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Blurb: Cooper tries to rest after the events in "...Tell Our Moms We Done Our Best"


Sleep is not coming. I wasn't ready for this part of my life to be over. I was just learning what it meant to have friends, maybe even family. I wanted the war to end, but not if this was the cost.

Now there's just Nathan and I.

I don't know what to do. I want Shane and Vanessa to be alive. I want Paul back. I want the Colonel back. I want Nathan to tell me what I should feel.

I'm lost and it hurts. Is that right?

I want this to just be some story Nathan or Shane is reading where they flip the page and everything turns out better.

I want to scream.

"They're alive, Coop," Nathan speaks for the first time, his voice raspy from all the yelling earlier. "We'll find them." I can only nod and Nathan keeps talking. "The Colonel will be yelling at us in no time. And I'm not going anywhere, I promise."

I look up and now all I can do is nod. Then I finally repeat, " I'm not going anywhere either, I promise."

- end -

© Susan August 2005